Baby Makayla Gabriell

Well November 5th was the date she came into the world 8lbs 1 oz 21 inches long and so perfect. She is named after her late uncle Mike my late husband and her great-grandma Gabriell and her grandmother Gabriell her great grandma was my Mom who passed on July 12, of this year. She is my great niece. She will always be very special to me.

I saw her once already and she will be here on Thanksgiving that is at my house so I am excited for the the holidays she will be here too for x-mas eve so alot to look forward to I need to have this happiness since this year has been terrible except now for the last part of it. My Dad is doing ok he seems to get along but it seems he needs more company I go once a week and my sis every other but he has 3 granddaughters that could visit but they don't yes they work but me and my sis do too. But I think they could do more, Today the neighbors brought over to him a casserole which he said was very good. So now looking forward to the cruise in February 10 days so that is the next thing to plan for and for the holidays.

Bitter Sweet Memories

Well now another month and 2 weeks gone by since my moms passing and it is getting better but she is still on my mind daily but the crying is less, My niece Shelley got married on 10/10 it was a nice wedding very laid back I like that. Well we all had a good time and My dad did manage to get there but c/o about the hotel bed too high but comfortable, I dont think he is up to traveling any more like that. So anyway now waiting for the baby to come my first great niece her middle name will be Gabriell my moms name and the babies grandmothers name who is my sister. Also this month John had surgery on his neck disc replacement with fusion not a nice surgery you have to wear a brace for 3 months, cant lay in bed cant look down or bend over and cant pick up anything heavier then a coffee cup so long recovery but it will be worth it with no more pain and numbness in his arm. So I hope it will all work out for him.

Well that is all for now will update in a month again I am sure I will have baby news by then.
bye bye Take Care.

Another month

Well another month has passed and the feelings for my mom are still there I don't think it will ever go away and that is ok because she will always be a part of my life even though she is not here physically she will always be in my heart and soul. Well we got most everything straightened out got financial taken care of and this Thursday we are going to pick out her stone for the cemetery. So we are all hanging in there but I still can just burst out in tears for no reason at all just missing her so much. My dad is doing OK I think he is settling in to being by himself. So we will see I think in the future we will try and sell the condo but for now he is going to stay put. So other then that not much going on We went to the Dells at the end of August and did enjoy that. We got the concrete slab poured for the small barn building that is what I am calling it the the small barn. Still waiting for Doug to make his move on the plane he needs to get it out of here before winter. So he says he is working on it but cant come soon enough. So that is all for now will write soon again.

Well alot has happened since I wrote in this blog. My Mom passed away on July 12th after a long fight with cancer 12 years of Breast cancer with mets to her lungs, bones and bouts and bouts of chemo, radiation, nausea, vomiting, broken bones, radiation burns, chest tubes for fluid on the lungs with collapsed lungs She spend endless days in the hospital and twice in a re-hab center, the last week of her life she spend in the hospital from July 5th to July 12th. I miss her so much I cant even tell you I wish I could have her back but healthy but that is not going to happen and now she is resting in peace with no suffering any more the last 2 weeks of her life she could not eat without throwing up and the last week she could not eat at all. SO it was a terrible death the last day she went into a coma and never came out. We were all there when she passed so that I am grateful for so I could say farewell but not good bye because I know we will be together again when I too take my final breath, for now she is my guardian Angel know she is watching over me and my sister and my DAD. Oh My Dad he will be 80 in March and well he does ok for himself he does walk with a walker but he is able to get around so for know he will stay in his condo till we can put it on the Market now is not the time. SO for now he is ok but he has his moments and so should he they were married for 56 years along time they lived there lives together longer then they lived apart. So yes he is hurting but I know he is strong and he will make it and we will all go on. She is gone but not from our hearts and she would want us to go on and live our lives. AND yess mom we are taking care of DAD. He is doing ok for now. Well have to go now or I will start crying again. MISS HER SO MUCH LOVE YOU MOM FOREVER.

Cruise CRUISE CRUISE

Well I did I booked a cruise for Feb for my hubs and I for our 2nd Wedding Anniversary 10 days this time instead of 7 in a Mini-Suite again I just cant wait to go. We went in December 2008 for nieces wedding cruise it was great first time I stayed in Mini-Suite it was great would only stay in Mini-suite from now on. This will be the hubs 2nd cruise and it will be my 5th my 4th on Princess Cruise. So I am looking foward to the islands and just being on the open sea.
It should be great.

Nolan Michael

My little angel was laid to rest yesterday he was my great nephew Nolan only 3 days old such a sweetheart he had a beautiful service in Florida his parents were so young only 24 but I know they will have another little one that will bring them so much joy and without the sorrow I hope this will bring some clousure for them and help them with the pain and hurt and loss they are feeling right now. No parent should have to bury there own child, and this was even more tragic since they only had him for 3 days he was a preemie only was 130z it was a miracle he even lived for 3 days he truly was a little angel and he touched so many lives go to rubybaby09.blogspot.com to see more of his incredible story and all of ours too. He touched all of us in our hearts and minds and gave us all a lesson in life.

Starting Blog

Well this my blog Hi I am Chris Barten-Matsukes, I am married this is my second marriage My first husband passed away in 2007 at a young age of 47 I miss him so much still yess it is true he will always be in my heart. My second marriage is very different then my first, Well first off my husband had never been married he is 51 and I am 51 he will be 52 this month and me in January, It has been a long road he was a bacholor way to long but he has a good heart and he is really trying and it is getting better and better each day. This year has not been good so far. It started off good but got worst and worst. Just last month My mom who has been battling breast cancer for 12 years is getting to the end of the road no more treatments and the bone pain is getting so bad for her yes it is in her bones and lungs. Then just this week My Niece Ashley and her husband Chriss baby passed after only being born only 3 days old. He was born premature at 26 weeks and only was 13 0z yes that is right 13 oz amazing he got born but now they are so heartbroken. Good things this year John got a new job. I still have my job.
My other Niece Shelley is pregros and due in November after her wedding in October so I do have those things to look forward too. So that is all for now I hope I did not bore you any. Will update soon.